> be me
> bullied in kindergarten and elementary school
> fat, virgin no friends

> “Why do I always end up bullied?”
> during high school I was basically a fat incel
> I stopped caring about social life, 24/7 playing league
> “I know the answer, its my looks..”
> Started bonesmashing, mewing, lifting etc
> actually got ultra glow up

> girls started approaching me
> my bullies stopped bullying me (they started ignoring me, which wasnt good aswell)
> first kiss, sex was in a month with 3 different girls
> my bodycount was 8 in 3 months somehow and all sex was in toilets

> now after year of meaningless parties I started trying to get a gf
> always got into a talking stage
> always failed
> already 10 girls in last half year has rejectrd me
> I asked them how much would they give me out of 10 and they all said 8-9/10, anyway they “werent ready”
> then they dated uglier dudes..

> depression kicks in rn

Started to realizing. My personality is shit. I want to kill myself even more. Looksmax is not that hard guys but how can I change myself? I watched thousands of ytb videos how to improve my acting but I actually cant, it seems like they can see through me. I am about to end it up soon..

> maybe I am just a shit and they see it