I came out to my mom as a philosophical pessimist

I told her that I want nothing to do with life or its meaningless pleasures.

I told her that life is a painful joke and that we should envy the dead for not being subject to it

I told her that having children is the worst thing a human could do

I told her I hated her for giving birth to me, and for filling my head with lies since childhood

Shes in the other room crying as I type this. I don't know what to do. I hate my family and I need to move out of this house