>>1707465hey, i make these threads to help people.
i think i lived through a similar problem to yours, where my mind was constantly numb and i was extremely uncreative as a result of that. that prevented me from getting into meaningful social interactions, as most of my conversations would turn into awkward silences, mainly because of me.
this made me feel guilty. i felt as if my friends were not hanging around me because they wanted to, but because i was forcing them to. i couldn't help but feel responsible for all of that, and at night, my failings in these conversations usually kept me awake.
i never found someone to help me with this. whenever i asked for an advice, they gave me a bunch of obvious stuff like "go outside anon" "be social anon". they sounded easy to say but hard to do at the time. i felt as if y problems were going to last forever, and that it would keep getting worse and worse.
well, for my 3rd year in university, i came across a good opportunity: to study in UK, for a bit, and maybe then work there after uni too. i took the offer, seeing i didn't have much left there in my life in turkey.
then i don't know what happened. but i think that sudden chance in my life taught me to adapt easily to alien situations. before UK, i was piss scared of social interactions, but in UK, everything was alien enough that social interactions stopped being so threatening, because everything else was threatening too. i started to get out of my shell a bit, and that was the start of the snowball effect that got me out of that mess. it helped me to restore my self confidence. cont
