>>17103483Kind of made me think. The truth is; I have questioned my faith, even claimed to have abandoned it at points in my life. Being where I am at now with it has been the most organic switch over in my whole life. They talk about reaching a "christ-like" mind state or something to that extent and I think I get it now. Granted too much clarity can muddy up my actions as well. I can't say that it's christianity, what I believe. I couldn't say that it's not considering some of my individuality or that I would be a "good christian" but I prefer this free-est of paths I've taken to be here. I appreciate it more having found it on my own. Like if ya wanna get all real hippy dippy about it; it's like seperation is an illusion and all that or so they quote on T-shirts sometimes. So conversely it's like the deeper one goes within; the more connected they are without? Maybe. I probably question it at least once a day; but I do so logically. If god were a myth? Then I still might pray; it's an exercize in communicating with one's core self. And if god does exist; I would pray; because it's a way of communicating with one's core self.
I hear meditation is pretty cool too. Perhaps that is blasphemous; but I am not out to save my own skin here. The one I pray too I believe would understand and isn't some petty cartoon character. Imagine comprehending all things. And then imagine any one of us humans being able to do the same without some real effort on our parts. We'd be lucky to even be given a chance to potentially co-create within the scope of said all creator. Literally spoiling his children to the point that they can do fucking ANYTHING and all they have to do is be genuinely sorry and repenet and still be allowed salvation;can you imagine a more patient parent? If it makes me a quack so be it. I'm the gentle quack on the hill; harming no one so may we let it be if your interpretation and path are different than mine; so long as you're not adversarial or subversive.
