I'm slowly losing my connection to society and I've long lost my desire to want to try and better it. I find myself feeling anywhere between loathing and outright hostile towards the people around me, from coworkers, my dear friends, family, and even my girlfriend. I stay up all night and think myself to death over how fucked up this existence is.

I'm sick of it all, but my will to live is unshakeable. I know in my heart there's more to life than all this, but I don't know how to escape, or where to go.