>>1713893I was studying different courses, in a completely different environment. All this forced me to do stuff, open my eyes, and think.
While this didn't completely rid me of my horrible mind numbness I was talking about, it certainly eased it, a lot. It got me out of my shell, and allowed me to experience the world around m; contrast to before, when I was trapped inside my head, unable to really give my attention that was outside my head for too long.
The change I went through was perhaps overly radical, but man I needed that. I felt like a punch to my face, or a bucked filled with cold water being splashed down my body. I also felt like a second chance, you know, to start all over again.
It didn't solve all my problems, obviously. You can't expect something big to just come at your way and rid you all of your problems, you need to actually work for it. However, that change certainly helped me to get motivated to get my shit together. It didn't solve my problems, but it put me in a situation where I could at least attempt to solve my problems, whereas without it I would have just given up.
I do realize that not everybody is in a position to make such drastic changes to their life like I did. But you gotta start from somewhere man. Even a small change in your daily schedule could create a snowball effect, making you change more and more about your life. One way or another, you need to find a reason to motivate yourself to do shit, it is how you live. It could be anything, as long as it gets you out of "everything is outside my control" mindset even for a second, it is probably worth doing.
Well, I am not a great motivational speaker, and this wall of text was not intended to motivate anyone anyway. This is just how I got out of it, it is my five cents for what its worth. If you can take anything from this, then it served its purpose. If not, all I can do is to beg you to not give up.
