>no friends
>no family
>parents never cared
>teachers never cared
>people on the street, neighbors all nameless and faceless, don't care
>dead end job, no ones cares, no one even pretends there will be a career
>dream job I wanted and was my only interest since childhood actively discriminated against me (only accept diversity applicants)
>government hates me, openly mocks me and any delusions of "retirement"
>active society hates me, not my country, not my history, all belongs to them and invaders
>the only role models all want you to sacrifice yourself for israel

What exactly is my purpose? Is this what it is to be a grown up? Do people actually experience love, warmth, happiness, fullfillment or is just an imaginary carrot dangling from a stick?
I wake up, I eat, I train, I go to work, the same exact thing everyday.

Is there something wrong with me, or is there a goal to create mass apathy? Because I will be honest, I feel zero connection or worth to anything. Nothing is mine.