>>17220929I'm going to try to dump as much genuine love and compassion as I can into this post, futuresight:
Take a lap, stop posting for a month or two, take this as a wake up call that you need to get your shit together. Retire your trip for a bit and just lurk or post anonymously. Come back when you're in a healthier place physically and mentally and THEN laugh this stuff off. Doubling down on this fuckup leads to some dark places that I don't think even you want to go.