on my wishlist of things that i want to do/try out in my life is murder. i know it is edgy as shit to say that and i also cant say i will ever do it, maybe i will pussy out (because of prosecution, video surveillance everywhere) or maybe i'll become a moral fag, but there's that.

i have a best friend from another country who also would like to do it. like make a snuff film or something: tie someone to a tree in a nightly forest and torture them ,stab their eyes out, cut off some bodyparts, etc. and record it.

im 19 and i've had these thoughts for at least 5 years. wouldn't it be amazing to have a rifle/shotgun and feel the power over unarmed people, line them all up and randomly killing off a few of them.

when i am in the city i very often think of a mace like picrelated, or a medieval axe and how pretty cool it would be to strike someone in the back with full force or chop their leg off.

a life where i could indiscriminately slaughter human beings would be the dream for me. i wouldnt even want a qt gf.

idk why i have these urges. and im not a stereotypical bullied fag, my friends from my place of study are normal people, they are social and shit.

i wish i was vlad tepes