been failing to heademptymaxx
i should not have talked to people
it makes me see me from others perspective
valproate dont make my brain shut up like it used to
its over
i feel freakin bad
ive been convincing myself its sigma not to talk to people
years of self isolation made my state of mind heckin comfy
at the expense of forgetting how to talk to people at all
i used to be an extrovert
how did this happen
honestly theres no hope honestly
i dont see any way i can live
neetbucks here too little
when i work boss always gets mad at me for reasons my autism brain doesnt comprehend
i have to guess but i must be looking like ritsu to boss when im talking facts and logic
im incapable of anything besides facts and logic
for example guys at le nightclub talk bout music but its not an objective, its just means to have good vibes
and i counter them with facts and logic about music which they find annoying
i have to learn good vibes chit chatter
learn how
verbally articulating what chit chatter is and why did they said A in the context of B
nah uh thats the rabbit hole to get disliked by everynyan
then how do i do what
fuck you
why am i writing this long
it must be an effect of valproate i started to take again
i feel like chatgpt when im on the anticonvulsant
i just write and write without no clear goal on my mind
what did i try to say
i forgor
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