how do i stop dissociating and derealizing?
the world feels like a parody of my mental world and the internet, any activities i do off the computer cease to have any emotional impact on me other than stress.
just walking around, leaving the house, talking to people, it all feels wrong, like a siren in my head is going off telling me to stop, and not really in a way that feels like anxiety.
at the same time, i dont really feel like i want to go back, the feeling is like a magnet, like a drug, but at the same time, if i dont stop, i dont know what will happen to me, maybe i just want to know what the right answer is, to go all the way or not?