I hate my current lifestyle and want to change my life

> 1 years ago
> 26 year old kissless virgin
> turbo coomer since 13 years old
> Hated outside world since childhood
> Only hobby is playing games
> only had few friends
> shy fuck
> coom once-twice a day
> never really fell in love with someone
> tired of sitting in room all day
> tired of playing the same games
> joins a badminton club
> start to meet new people
> meet a girl in the club
> befriend her
> get teached a lot from her
> start meeting few times a week
> teach me how to cook and paint
> teach her a bit of how to play games
> realise that i like her a lot
> cant stop thinking about her
> feel happy when shes smiles

I'm tired of living the same, sad life. I missed so much and hate myself for it. I decided to delete everything that is porn related from my devices. +50 bookmarks and +100gb of porn are gone and i dont want to go back. I want to tell her that i love her, but i know that i gonna fail