Life is too hard and painful. I have no joy anymore and feel like I'm left alone.
>26 years old and a virgin who still lives at home
>no grandfathers
>no real contact with grandmothers
>uncles, aunts etc dont care about me
>cousins dont care about me
>have 1 or 2 friends but I always have to make the move
>have parents and brother but not a good relationship. Dad and mom didnt teach me shit and brother is an arrogant Zoomer asshole who only cares about partying and drugs
>arguement almost every single evening
>coom 5x a day to fill the void I have
>do job I hate
>alcoholic and smoker


Why do I have such a shitty life? I somehow find relief in National Socialism, which only helps a little bit.

If that continues or gets worse, its probably better to Sudoku myself, so I dont suffer anymore. You can't imagine how hard life is without a functioning family.

I'm sorry guys and I'm sorry Hitler. I'm weak and worth less than dirt...