I feel like i'm just wasting days, just waiting for the "days of living", the "days of enjoyment". Or even just waiting for a respawn, reroll, whatever. I do the same shit every day, it's like my head hasn't realised i only have this 1 shot at life, and i'm going to have to be active if i want to achieve something beyond just existence.

I'm not depressed, really. But i just feel indifferent and clueless.