>>17577827the exit is right there at all times
i'm not counseling suicide but don't pretend it isn't, death, whatever it might amount to, as a fact, as the immediate reality underpinning waking experience. its sureness in ending no matter what you do
there is nothing keeping you here but your insistence in hanging on through ingestion of food and water and not making yourself keel over somehow keeps it going. are you getting anything out of it if you aren't enjoying it? surely your pain is related to some nature of energetic knotting or improperly addressed injury. if you're still upright and kicking maybe it's worth striving for wellness seeing as the cosmos is perfectly capable of crushing you with a jet engine or something like that at a moment's notice were your death ordained. that you're still alive and breathing shows the roller coaster ride has yet to end.
if i could ever impart a single takeaway to anyone with any of this it's that you have nothing to lose. death is no object. the most valuable thing, and it will be facilitated should you choose to go through with it, you can offer to the universe is your own self expression in as naked and unadulterated a format as can be mustered in any given life. find out what that is. feel yourself. trust yourself.
but please, know, that even if the great omniscient ouroboric shemale monster mommy in the sky is very well seated in utter hell and total capacity for malice and harm, she is underpinned by utter orgasm and pure, blistering love and the wider play of light across dimensionality is an exertion of immense kindness and generosity for the infinitude of apparently separative beings that get to frolic and explore creation and one another
there is no evil here. not in the entire creation. all it offers is contrast at worst and just that is simply the fodder upon which discernment and evolution blossoms
