>>17711155>Start by getting a jobi cant, they just reject me
and my social interaction is fucked (hard)
i can barely say a word, whenever i make it to sentence a nonsense comes out instead. when someone is speaking to me, sometimes i can't hear em, idk how to explain it
>poverty is 1000 times more stressful than no gf or no friendsimagine like both
ha ha (not funny actually)
anyway, sorry to bother you as you are the only person who cares at least a bit. while writing all that stuff, i realized that i am looking for a magic pill, that doesn't exist. i'm too overwhelmed by my mental problems (bad childhood n stuff) to make a move. i will try to find a remote job at the summer. if i don't succeed, i will eventually kill myself. the world is survival of the finest, unfortunately i am not one of them. if i don't succeed there either, i am going to eat shit until i die from ulcer bleeding. i lost 15 kg already (while not being a meaty man initially) for no reason, my bmi rn is less than 14. decrease that value just a bit lower and im done
