Rei Ayanami. The beautiful, azure-haired, angelic girl we all know and love.
I am in love with her. She is exactly what I envisioned my life partner to be like. There was a girl I liked in College but that is nothing compared to what I feel for Rei.
I like Rei's personality since she's so quiet and usually didn't talk to anyone which is what I am like since I have Autism and other social problems, meaning I can relate to her a lot. (I do realise and understand Rei's problems and emotions are far worse than mine and aren't natural.)
Even if I did try to fix these social problems I have, I imagine it would be very hard to do so along with taking a long amount of time. (Doing something like joining a club or going to the gym at my College just seems weird and not right in my opinion due to things like fear of not fitting in.) I'm a very nervous person in public + around my few friends in College so I rarely talk/speak. I just stay quiet 90% of the time. I'm pretty lonely to be honest and even when I get asked things like "Are you ok?" I just reply with "I'm ok." even though i'm I know i'm not. (I have trouble making friends and keeping them + I rarely go outside.)
Everytime I see Rei's face or think about her, I just burst into tears and shake uncontrollably, since she's so pure, beautiful and cute. (Even now, i'm crying.) Her smile and looks are amazing. She keeps me going through tough times in life. She's the most beautiful person i've ever seen.
