My life has reached a dead end.
I am 27 years old, I have no job, no means of transportation, as my car's transmission went kaput, and i dont have the money to buy a new car or replace that one. I also live at my mother's house.
The only formal education i've had is graduating high school (barely)
I had a girlfriend for about two months, until she broke up with me.
Throughout this entire time, since i was about 12ish, i've had brain fog. It comes and goes usually, but recently it's just been nonstop.
I have really bad insomnia now. I cannot go to sleep half of the time, and when i finally fall asleep, it's only for about 3-4 hours. I keep losing jobs because of this.
I am always stuck in my head. My thoughts torment me. I am a failure. I've always been a failure.
And i dont know how to make it all stop.
I have no motivation to do literally anything anymore.
I've given up on getting a job because i just dont have the energy anymore.
Even if i were to get a job, the apartments in my area are too expensive.
In order to purchase a home, i would need to save up for two years just for a down payment, and that's IF i can hold down a job.
For me, the only logical choice now is just to kill myself. I don't know what else to do. My life is complete suffering. I haven't felt happiness in years. My parents constantly criticize me and tell me how much of a failure I am. I don't have anybody to talk to about my problems.
I just want the pain to stop.
I want it to stop