Heh it's kinda funny that when i'm completely convinced that i don't know enough to write, that there comes in Plato, and in Ion basically says(so far) that creating is separate from knowing. That those who create do so because of inspiration, not because they came to know how to do it. Sure, to talk about a certain topic one needs to know various good and bad pieces(to do it properly), but it seems like that's not necessarily the case when it comes to making things yourself. Talking about stuff and making stuff yourself require different kinds of knowledge. And so i'm back where i started really.
But now that i think about it, this may also be separate from one's expectations, and so i guess the search continues anyway.