ok /bant/ I want to share my crushes trought my life

1st crush:
>8th grade
>She is the cutest girl I've ever met and she sits right next to me
>She talks to me
>Tells me to help her have a date with my cousin

2nd crush:
>9th grade
>she makes and excuse that she can see from the back of the classroom and sits on the floor right in front of me and uses my legs to rest.
>probably notices that I have a crush on her because I had a fucking boner everytime she rested on my leg.
>She start talking to me and jews me out
>Friends tell her to fuck off
>she fuck off

3rd crush
>9th-10th grade
>She is cute, small, underdeveloped; looked like a loli (which turned me on at the time)
>Talked to her a lot
>She invites me to her birthday
>I do couple of parties at my house to celebrate mid terms and other things.
>She tells me that she knows I like her but that I'm not her type in a really subtle way
>move on.

11th-12th grade
>Never talk to her but I loved her because of her smile and how cute her voice was.
>couldn't bring myself to talk to her for some reason.
>12th grades comes
>I eavesdroped a conversation she had with her friends.
>Basically she went to DR and had a fuck ton of drugs and sex
>Forget about her because she is used goods.

and now here I am with a really shitty ego and going to college in 2 weeks.

Can you guys share anything like this so at least I can feel a bit better about myself?