>>17978176>at night/early morningI've barely ever went out after dark and where I live isn't the safest so it just makes me feel too wary for it to be fun. The early mornings are never a time when I wouldn't prefer being at home instead, so, eh.
Not really good at deviating from what I'm used to so that's probably it for the most part.
I also just don't like those parts of the day enough to be out during them. Dusk is the only thing I'd willingly go out for.
>i don't think belonging is a bad thingProbably not. Either way, I just specifically hate this place and everything in it.
I don't say it ironically. It's dumb and I shouldn't care about it at all when I think about it, but a lot of the time my blood genuinely boils at even seeing the catalog here and I hate coming back to it.
I feel shitty about it for the rest of the day if I make a single post, but I can't really do anything much about it because I feel the constant urge to post somewhere and this is where I'm most used to being, so it's what my brain keeps thinking of. Having it constantly in my mind is almost as annoying as the feeling I get after indulging it.
>i think you've carved yourself a nice little niche here to enjoyEh. I don't really know what there is to enjoy here. Given the above.
Whatever that niche is, I'm bored to death of it.
>people not only accept your presence, but embrace it.It's whatever because I hate the people here.
Though, is it weird that I don't prefer that in general? It feels like the only time I get excitement from online spaces is when it's before that.
Not only that but it's annoying when somebody is okay with me because my brain denies that they can be. If I'm not acting ironic, I prefer a place where I'm unwanted as long as I'm not banned from it. Just that it least feels honest.
Charlim.