Anons I can't take it anymore, being socially akward is terrible. It doesn't get better, doesn't matter how much I go out and try, one simple thing always burns my soul, one wrong "hI", one weird action, its like a knife into my hearth. I thought it would change, but it never changes. I feel like there's an anvil being dropped on my head all day.
I just wanted to be normal, i know other people also feel fear and embarassment while being social, but i really think those feelings are amplified with me. I want to make it stop, my work environment is hell, walking on the street is hell, please make it stop, i'm going to work and talking to people for half a decade already, when does it stop please