Feels like the entire world is against me just me exsisting is a taboo to this world. Everyone is scripted to undermine and target me. Throwing more unfair circumstances at me. I'm just "unlucky". If I kill myself at this point it would be the same as waving a white flag and tell everyone they won. If me being alive is an eyesore to everyone then if I make it as an eyesore to everyone then that means I'm winning. If after all of this I come out of it at the end then they are the losers for failing to trample me down.