>>181044I've heard it's heroin, but hear me out, life is beautiful, including whatever shit you've made your life into, like, people enjoy tragedies and horror movies and shit right, they watch em just to watch em, and they're pale imitations of the real thing, which you have a front row seat to, so appreciate your life as a piece of art. You may even have a richer experience while stewing in your own shit than those folks whose only motivation in life is to make their bank number bigger, and maybe you'll achieve an equanimity such that you'll be able to improve your life to something that would be considered more conventionally enjoyable, or not, fuck it, it's your life, do what you like.