>>1811359Okay this may sound a bit shitty and ridiculous but here we go.
All my life I was interested in all forms of entertainment and making people happy and therefore I thought it would be great to make this my lifes way of living. I started playing piano, drawing and writing, mainly english to train for international public. My biggest dream was it to go to America or the UK one day, where I can perform all these things. I didn't even think about the money, I just wanted to give the world my stuff so they can enjoy it.
Somewhere something went horribly wrong. I started worrying too much about the future, completely meaningless shit and other stuff. Then I thought maybe people won't even hire me or buy my stuff because of my nationality.
Then I became more and more isolated. I lost all my passion, creativity and happiness. I think about suicide at least 2 times a day and I also thought about taking drugs but I don't want to hurt my family. I also thought about running away but where should I go?
I don't know how to go on, I don't see the point.
