what exactly is wrong with me? i cannot work a job, every time i have tried the situation itself or some element of it made it painful to get out of bed in the morning. i couldnt live with it. i hate other people, there are very few humans i find tolerable to enjoyable. ive attempted intercourse, and each time i find the experience uneventful but not unenjoyable. i derive more entertainment from my hobbies, is that in and of itself wrong of me? why cant i find the same enjoyment in things as other men? why am i so disconnected from the others of my kind? what is my problem?