>>18553278Tarot cards were used, blood semen sacrifice, chanting for six hours, intense meditation, visualization, induction of ecstatic trance and sexual meditation.
ngl, at one point I felt like I was falling into myself, contorting, mutating, like something had gripped my soul and ripped me into my own depths. Was fucked. By the end of it all, yes, next day, a girl a friend knew was calling to pretend to be someone I had lied about raping (as a social experiment) when I was much younger, and was calling to just fuck with me in general, try to seduce me, but mostly just to fuck with me with no intention of doing anything.
A woman of chaos, not quite what I wanted, or what I meant, but a woman of chaos of a different sort.
That isn't just a coincidence. That is the fabric of this world sticking a dildo up my ass for trying to "do magic" and fuck with the inner workings of my psyche in a way the owner's manual didn't recommend.
It won, okay. Don't fuck with it. Just live your fucking life.
