I've been masturbating compulsively for roughly 4/5 of my life every day. How do I get it through to my subconscious mind that masturbation is bad so I stop doing it on autopilot? I feel such a spiritual and cognitive lowness afterwards now so any enjoyment is quickly fading away.

don't bother replying if you say masturbation is fine physically, morally or spiritually because I already know it isn't