>>18610553well I have been learning programming for a few months now, but not consistently, I also have some little gigs I do to earn little money.
I just want to have a clear head, remove all my addictions and bad mentality and be able to focus 1000% on something.
I don't even care if it's drawing basedjaks. I just want to see myself being able to put total effort in something again
you're right that generally I'm too tired and defeated to be an effective, functional human being