I hate everyday of clown world and I have very strong mental problems with this society. I binge eat fast food and chips, vape, watch porn and masturbate 5-10 times a day, consume nicotine pouches and drink alcohol daily (mostly vodka but sometimes beer).

However today after vapeing and consuming 1 nicotine pouch, I was feeling very dizzy and I really thought I was going to die(really scary experience).

I just consumed a beer and I decided that I have to stop all my degenerate habits or otherwise I won't make 2023.

Everyday when I am at work and eat chips at lunch break, the vicious cycle starts again.

When I consume the fast food or chips my brain decides to fully escalate and indulge into every bad behavior.

How do I stop it? How do I become strong in clown world?

I suffered greatly when the covid hoax hit and I was almost fired for not getting jabbed (I'm still pureblood btw). I was also redpilled in 2018 with Fascism and National Socialism.

How do I become strong again, frens? I'll post rare Hitler pics in return for good replys.

But please help me, frens. I do have suicidal thoughts but I dont want to die.