>>18748120I know that feeling because I felt it myself at my first job when I dropped out of high-school, people don't understand what drives someone to off themselves so suddenly, if anyone is interested in why let me just show you a glimpse of my fucked up life to this point, and no this isn't humor, this is a channel about freaks and outsiders so here you go, you've been warned.
First of all my childhood was a complete mess, I'm 23 years old and I had partial amnesia but details are starting to come back because I can remember events now without feeling immense depression, let's talk about my parents, first of all I wasn't allowed to go outside or have friends by my father in his village then we moved to the city and we were so poor I cried over my kindergarten teacher taking a rare ten cents off me to buy a mother's day gift, my father was a psychopath never showed any feelings or even chatted with me, he stopped working due to a rare joints disease apparently and was on some medical drugs that drove him mad and my mom was barely providing for us by running an illegal childcare, they are both very childlike gullible and naïve to this day so I gained zero skills in real life I wasn't even taught how to clean a plate and I gained their demeaner and gullibility which I'm trying to erase everyday to this moment, they never taught me anything that a normal human has not even jokes, during my school years when I was a top student my father chased me down to my room with a knife, I thankfully had the door locked and put my cabinet drawer and bed behind it then he threatened to blow up the entire place by putting the house on fire then killing me, my window had metal bars or I would've jumped off from my second floor apartment window, my mother and two little sisters who were locked in the other room screaming for my neighbors help (part 1)
