>>18825691>>18825701My Problems followed to the reason i do believe what's happening:
>Clinical Depression for more than 14 years (starting at the age 15 y.o.)Due to Parents issues (Both mother and fother neglected everything except food in my life)
>avoidant personality disorder, parents abandoned me and gave me away. Regardless of this, The caretaker was a great person and literally did something that my parents never did, read to me anything, teaching to walk, take bath, walk, talk, etc.>Can't form any kind of relationship After Caretaker died my parents took me back and said it was my own fault that said caretaker died.
>no initiative. Parents acted like absolute shit towards me when they took me back. Did something good? got yelled, something bad happened and i was not related to it? got yelled.
>Low Self esteem. One time got a bone fracture and parents didn't take me to a doctor for two months despite of me telling them it was fracture. They believe an stranger who doesn't know anything about medicine more than their own son. >Self-Pariah of the family.Unable relate with family, due to betray and TOTAL lack of support for anything in life and constant clash with them because they don't respect me as a human being, the family is non-existent. Family feels alien.
>Incapable of understanding what FAITH is. Drunkard father seeded in my head from age of 1 y.o. that "family, having children and religion are garbage".
Imagine Telling your 3 y.o. son that santa doesn't exist, religion is garbage, you should be ashamed for being born and that having children is a pain
>Numbed, incapable of feeling loveMom always acted repulsed towards me, never called me by my name. Blaming me for things i didn't do, comparing me to others who were successful and perfect. She didn't help shit to me. She is an disgusting bitch
>Trust towards other people Father and mother are disgusting manipulative people. they makes me feel miserable.
