if you really dont give a fuck anymore and just treat your life like a car going 200mph hurdling towards a brick wall, with a thought out procedure in mind of how to go about this, deciding to do whatever drugs and fuck cheap whores, does the subjective worth increase for you the worse it gets as your only purpose will be to just go out in a blaze of glory? like imagine a prostitute, a whore, and then a crack addicted prostitute. for someone thats really determined to fuck over his life and die in the process, like in a fucked up version of leaving las vegas perhaps, the crack whore would be the more effective, destructive and thus more 'worth her price' (though her price probably is much lower than the non addicted slut ((financially)). or you'd take a bunch of drugs but choose random gas station bath salts and pcp from behind a cornerstore over something expensive like cocaine or good, rare pills.
so is happiness and the things we are willing to give for it just a complete subjective thing and it can actually be any shitty object or concept or is there something like a universal allencompassing source of happiness? if so, how to obtain it?