>>18885779It's true. I don't even fantasize about regular sex anymore. Haven't for about fifteen years.
Now it's all sissy/bimbo/Pornworship fantasies. Going deeper. More vibrators and penis pumps. More neural reactivity and brain alteration. MORE!!! Less emotion towards real world stuff. Fuck, I'm just drifting through that part of life anyway. For me, reality is Porn & my goon time.
I cant remember the last time i "watched" a porn scene just by itself. My attention span now is all flashes & visual. Binaural shit. Drone & trance stuff. And hypno subliminal flashing shit. You pop on some epilepsy vids and headphone out in a dark room and you can literally lose 12 hours of your life just burning your brain out and replacing fragments of your essence with cotton candy bimbo porn bliss.
If this is the Matrix then let me stay. I just need that rock hard edging, that take-me-the-fuck-away Pornlife. Honestly, Im supposed to give this up for what, some "relationship" with a " real woman"?
Hahaha it's not even a fair fight anymore.
Im a unit. A Porn casualty. An offering upon Porn's holy altar.
Here are some thoughts on goon and porn addiction...
It is a Pavlovian response. You come to associate Porn aesthetics with pleasure and stress relief. It becomes addictive because you want stress relief and it is an extremely potent way to achieve it.
Porn is far beyond what real life can offer. Porn is like having Bugatti or a rolls Royce. Real life is a Mercedes at best.
Also, right now (and even before) dating is a tedious proposition (very risky in covid times), it is high investment with potentially very little return. Whereas with Porn the return is steady and predictable.
Porn, already dominate presently, is the future evermore. There is no upfront emotional cost, one can stop anytime (but why stop something nice?)... the only downside is lowered self esteem but then again, what good is that going to do in an increasingly tedious social landscape?
