>>18951752Okay, then the best I can do is shoot in an arrow in the dark:
In your current state, when you post on this board, on this site, or anywhere else, it shouldn't be motivated by your desire to find comfort and warmth. Right now you've lost your primary source for that, and I believe yesterday you attempted to reconnect with your secondary source you once had, though you seem conflicted about it
When you post like this, seeking a source of comfort, and you fail to find it (which is the likely outcome), it's only going to make you more desperate to have your old one, and this causes you to once again be hit with the realization that you've lost it, which will make it difficult for you to heal. Like the Russian said, there's not point being genuine here. The likelihood of that being beneficial to you is low, and the chances of that hurting you is high in your vulnerable state
I'm not saying to stop posting, but please, try and be mindful of why you're posting. Is it for fun? Mindless entertainment? Something to take your mind off things? Good. If it's to vent your emotions, find sympathy, or a genuine conversation, then try to find other ways of doing that that doesn't rely on places like these. Easier said than done, I know. But the modern internet does more harm than good. And I know you know that.
I'm not sure if that was helpful in anyway, but at the very least it should provide some self-reflection for you. Hang in there the best you can, okay? Goodnight
