>>19001644idk, asker. to me, happiness is just an illusion you're free to delude yourself in at anytime. everything is just that to me because though there is this objective reality we're able to manipulate, we're only able to interface with it through the subjective, and this subjective is something we're able to manipulate to see the objective how we'd like to. it's basically being red pilled, but choosing to adopt a personal blue pill mindset for yourself because none of it really matters anyways. if you look around, you'll see how humans choose to willingly delude themselves with lies about how the world is, but the lies are so convincing for them, it becomes the truth for them.
idk if there's any reason to be happy, other than it feels good, but if it's born out of a desire to cease your suffering, then you will inevitably end up suffering, for the man who wants nothing, has everything. i can't say that my personal convictions will hold any light to your darkness, but it's just the conclusions i've ended up on about my life.
