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>be 10 y.o.me
>it's the year 2005
>oldest brother starts using H
>stay at friend's house often to get away from the fighting and screaming over brother's addiction
>friend is about 2 years older than me
>he tells me one day I should go down on him
>I don't want to
>he then pulls down my pants w/o permission and goes down on me
>standing still, frightened
>he says "see it's not that bad"
>I go down on him because I feel forced and scared because he's bigger and stronger
>for some reason I still go to his house sometimes
>I didn't have full grasp of what was going on or how to handle it
>all I knew is that it felt wrong ad weird and scary
>this keeps happening for 3 years
>fast-forward to present day, am 28 y.o. now
>I feel too delicate and feminine for being a man
>constant anxiety
>constantly need to be coddled and hugged and reassured
>feel strangely attracted to cock and I don't want to be
>trans girls turn me on but I don't like that they do
>I like girls and I don't want to think about cock anymore
>I tell my therapist this and tell her about what happened years ago
>she says I was molested/raped and I never processed that trauma
>she says liking cock is wrong because I am a guy
>based
>She believes I'm hetero but because of the molestation I have a strange attraction to penis
>I just want to be normal again
How do I become unattracted to dick?
>it's the year 2005
>oldest brother starts using H
>stay at friend's house often to get away from the fighting and screaming over brother's addiction
>friend is about 2 years older than me
>he tells me one day I should go down on him
>I don't want to
>he then pulls down my pants w/o permission and goes down on me
>standing still, frightened
>he says "see it's not that bad"
>I go down on him because I feel forced and scared because he's bigger and stronger
>for some reason I still go to his house sometimes
>I didn't have full grasp of what was going on or how to handle it
>all I knew is that it felt wrong ad weird and scary
>this keeps happening for 3 years
>fast-forward to present day, am 28 y.o. now
>I feel too delicate and feminine for being a man
>constant anxiety
>constantly need to be coddled and hugged and reassured
>feel strangely attracted to cock and I don't want to be
>trans girls turn me on but I don't like that they do
>I like girls and I don't want to think about cock anymore
>I tell my therapist this and tell her about what happened years ago
>she says I was molested/raped and I never processed that trauma
>she says liking cock is wrong because I am a guy
>based
>She believes I'm hetero but because of the molestation I have a strange attraction to penis
>I just want to be normal again
How do I become unattracted to dick?
