I don't know where else I can go, but i feel like i have to get it out somewhere. I'm a 27 year old kissless virgin who never had feelings for someone
But this girl hits me different. Her smile makes me forget how shit things around me are. Her smile always cheers me up and I feel like i want to hug her all day long. Everytime I think about asking her out, I feel a strong pain in my chest with strong self hating thoughts, on how I'm not allowed to be happy. Every time I try to move these thoughts away, i get even more thoughts about how I could ruin a good friendship between me and this person. I'm not smart or good looking. Not like her, she's a goddess in my eyes. I don't know what to do. I just want to be happy