In my high school there was this weird 4channer kid me and my friends used to bully and mock. He was really weird, but not necessarily a bad kid, just a bit of a jerk to some people and some kind of oddball. But me and my friends were just assholes and took out whatever we felt on him and never thought of him as a real person. We would annoy him by pretending to be black, I remember he showed me a 4chan screencap saying that bullying is brown people behavior and he was struggling with suicidal thoughts. And I would call him a "faggot" and "retarded", along with me and my friends pretending to be black when we would act like he was being racist when he said something like "shut the fuck up, nigger". But at that point he wasn't really a nigger or a faggot, those words just sounded funny to us.
After high school we all kind of matured and moved on with our lives, except for him. Now I look back and see that this was a very mean thing to do and I feel very bad about it. I'm not sure if he knew that we were just assholes or not, we just saw him as a target. Maybe this has been hard on him and I feel bad for it. I don't really want to contact him now because I know it will bring up a lot of shit that happened and I don't want to hurt him more. I still kind of feel like an asshole for it and I still look back to that time.
But I do want to tell him I'm sorry. I think about him and I wish I didn't do those things to him, I hope he can forgive me for it. I hope this hasn't been hard on him, even if it was he probably deserved it but it's still my fault. I just say, if you happen to see this, I am sorry.