I’m tired of being myself, I’ve become everything I ever hated and I am physically deteriorating. I am morally destitute, stupid, physically weak, and useless. I am tired of seeing my stupid ugly families faces and interacting with them. I am tired of this existence. I have not been happy in years, admittedly due to my own stupid mistakes, and it is obvious I will never be as happy as I used to. If I had a shotgun right now I would shove it in my mouth and kill my self and let my stupid parents clean up the mess.