>>19421235having goals is just gaslighting yourself
the reason you think you want to achieve a goal is because your body makes you feel good for working toward it
because if you're not constantly working to do things, your body will make you want to kill yourself, simply because its nature.
if you cant feel happy just by doing the simple things like reading, watching anime, and playing games then theres not much that will be worthwhile in your life
just embrace what you have, because chances are, it'll be the best you'll ever have