I KNOW I'M DOING SOMETHING WRONG BUT WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? I FEEL CONSTANTLY EMPTY AND HAVE MY WHOLE LIFE. I CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I FELT TRULY HAPPY OR FREE AND THAT IS ALL I WANT I WISH I JUST HAD NORMAL PEOPLE THOUGHTS AND DESIRES AND I WISH I COULD BE CONTENT WITH WHAT I HAVE BUT FOR SOME REASON I CAN'T GET OVER THE FACT THAT WE ARE JUST COGS IN A GRAND MACHINE!!!