I can’t take it anymore
I went to a club with my friends for the first time and I felt like a piece of furniture, I can’t talk anymore, I’m just so devoid of any personality that I can barely talk, the only thing I have left is self pity, I can’t talk to women, I’m just deathly terrified of woman for some reason, I have plenty of woman in my life like my mother and grandmas but still I can’t, I’m sure I’m better looking than at least 80% of the fuck boys in the club yet still I had no courage, hell, I think one of the women tried flirting with by dancing at my side and fiddling with her shirt to show of her boobs yet still I wasn’t able to say anything
I also wasn’t able to find almost any of the women atractive, my mind has been souled by countless hours of hentai and furry hentai, yet still, I don’t really care for sex if I’m being honest, I just want a pretty, nice and gentle women to love me and for me to love her back, unfortunately that’s something I’ll never have
I find that I’m just a nuisance to my friends, I barely get any calls, at least they invite to stuff, yet I feel that they are only doing it out of pity, there’s no one I can truly call mu best friend, there’s no one that I get along super well with
It’s all darkness, I try to stay positive, yet, I just can’t keep lying to myself anymore, a shaft of light is all I need