I feel so undeniably awful right now. The only things that would make it better would be weed or booze and a hot blonde guy or ebony bbw to fuck. All things I do not have because my life is shit. I do not even get joy from the things I have like video games or books because I find them frustrating or boring. Walking isn’t fun anymore either and I’ve seen everything interesting in this godamn city. I don’t have money and can’t drive. I’m a powerless like a child. I’m just waiting for nothing at this point.