>>1995932I'm at the point where honestly I know it doesn't get better, because I've lived enough to know it doesn't.
10 years ago was the last time I honestly wanted to, and tried to kill myself. I had one of those spiritual "maybe it does get better and I need to try" moments. Now it literally is worse than any bottom I've ever had.
As for the whole god and a bigger plan bullshit, if this is what I have to go through than happiness isn't worth it.
