42 yo here. I hate women and their drama/bullshit yet I long to fuck a girl like picrel and cum buckets inside her butthole. Never had a GF before though I fucked tons of prostitutes during my twenties. Should I resign myself and buy a real doll? I feel like the post clarity nut would make me feel suicidal afterwards. "Imagine fucking a glorified mannequin made of plastic, who am I? Krilin from DBZ? I'm a grown up man who engaged in coitus with a expensive piece of plastic shaped like a woman because I'm so virgin and autistic I could even get an ugly one. I'm a complete failure and I should kill myself" Anyways, I'm planning to live a hermit life away from society in a far away, cold place. I like women but I can't stand them, not even paying a prostitute to ditch them later. What should I do? (other than getting mental help, of course)