I need your help, /pol/.
I've been around on and off for some time, but only recently found that the general consensus around here is somewhat aligned to my, for lack of a better expression, 'gut feeling' on how things really work.

If we really are puppets of a global, satanistic, kike cabal, then...
Was Christ invented by them?
Does Christianity just emulate a higher truth that predates the religion as a concept?

I'm really in a pinch here.
I just ditched all my pr0nz, and am trying to turn over a new leaf... for like the 4th time in my life. I always fail.
Shit, I even wanted to be baptized at one point, and enter into the Church (Roman Catholicism, it's pretty much the only form of Christianity that has any presence in my country).

Picrel is literally me, later tonight.
I'm at a crossroads yet again. I will pray, but I NEED to know who or what am I even praying to.

Help me, Anon-Bro Kenobi. You're my only help.