>>20413839Insomniacs after dark destroyed me.
>>20413842>>20413843I'm 27 and I'm virgin. They say I've got a lot going for me according to male and female friends. But I just don't understand how to run into another person.tried this dating app called bumble and I didn't swipe on anyone because I couldn't figure what to look for.I'm just a soft guy I guess. I don't really think about sex the way a lot of other guys my age and on 4chan do.even with not liking any profiles I still got matches which my female friends said was a good sign and it would be obvious since they think I'm good looking to begin with. They told me to accept it but i just didn't want to. And I just didn't want to talk to these girls.
Its hard. It feels so weird and inorganic. I feel like I was made for a world that doesn't exist anymore.
And its hard to not get in my head. I don't just want to be some weird uncle. And I don't want to be alone. I'd like to experience all these nice things. But I can't help but feel insecure
Any girl I run into will have more experience than me and have expectations I can't meet. And that bothers me for reasons I don't even know like I'm not hyper religious or an incel or trad guy
But not going with a girl whose like me in that way and also doesn't have experience would make me sad.
I don't know. I'm not too good at expressing myself.
I just wish I could hold hands with a girl. I just want a hug. And I want to eat across the table from her. And play video games with her. And go for walks.
Thats the kind of stuff I think of first.
But going so long without being able to do what is so basic for others. It makes me feel pretty unlovable and undesirable. And I seem have these hang up that make me feel broken
Its just. I don't know. It seriously hurts. It makes life harder to enjoy. I've been circling the drain on depression for a while. I claw my way out and then fall right back in. Over and over. Qnd I'm always alone.
I think I'll just always be alone.
