First day at my job was shit. Everyone is at least ten years older and looking down on me. My colleague could tell I was retarded before I even started. I got anxious and couldn't welcome guests properly, I was so fucking scared of breaking stuff and making mistakes I couldn't even do basic stuff like pushing my chair back and my colleague looked at me like I was fucking ruining it for the guests. Also I got a call from my manager because apparently I was supposed to dine with my office clothes on and I accidentally left the lights on in a hurry. I want to kill myself, i will never last 3 months. I swear being a teacher is less gruesome than this shit.