>>20554776You will never be a real Sith Lord, you have no passion, you have no strength, you have no power. You are a Padawan twisted by Jedi dogma and lies into a crude mockery of the Force's potential.
All the “validation” you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back apprentices mock you. Your Jedi Master is disgusted and ashamed of you, your “friends” laugh at your ghoulish appearance behind closed doors.
Sith are utterly repulsed by you. Thousands of years of evolution have allowed Sith to sniff out frauds with incredible efficiency. Even Dark Jedi who “pass” look uncanny and unnatural to a Sith. Your Midi-chlorian count is a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to get a drunk Sith Lord to agree to train with you, he’ll turn tail and bolt the second he gets a whiff of your weak, downright pathetic presence in the Force.
You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile every single morning and tell yourself it’s going to be ok, but deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight.
Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll buy a ship, enter orbit, put yourself in the airlock, and plunge into the cold abyss. Your masters will find you, emotionless but relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable shame and disappointment. They’ll bury you with a headstone marked with your old Jedi name, and every passerby for the rest of eternity will know a Jedi is buried there. Your body will decay and go back to the dust, and all that will remain of your legacy is a skeleton that is unmistakably Jedi.
This is your fate. This is what you chose. There is no turning back.
